The things aren't what they seem meme

The other week, my good friend Bangs wrote on her blog a post about the difference between how things seem, and how they actually are in relation to our curated lives online.

I am having to dictate this post to you, because I am too exhausted to write. There is no make up, lomo lense or fictitious curation here.

Last week, I wrote a post about how Superwoman can do one, and it seemed to really resonate with many women out there; however, I failed to actually explain further, to portray how my life actually is living with chronic fatigue, illness and also trying to be a mother to my beautiful young twins Eva and Mia.

This is how my life currently goes:
I am too tired to combine everyday activities and not suffer the next few days.
I rarely see my friends.
I am pretty much isolated all the time, as I don't have the energy to socialise.
I am not a mum to my children in the way that I would like to be, they are used to seeing me on the sofa, in my dressing down in pyjamas, and they are totally used to mum who have to rest while they do things with their dad, or other members of the family.

I hate this.

The way that we live life on the Internet currently is that we tend to post selfies, we only show images of when we look fine, and when we are looking healthy, made up, active.

If you only read my social media updates, many of which I omit out life actually is for me, you would think I am out there in the big wide world, enjoying life, working, being part of so many things.

I want to be. But I'm not.

I can barely look after my children in the way that I want to.

I can barely get through each day without having to lie down for a significant part of it, or if I have made it out I lose days in bed to fatigue and pain.

So there you have it. I am doing my very very best with what I have, and I am so so thrilled to have the most beautiful children in the entire world. I just wish that I had a life too.

So next time you see someone someone else's life online and feel envious, remember: things just ain't what they seem.