The ups and downs of empathy

So, last night I ran 9 miles. Massive achievement for me, so pleased and proud.

Today I am in pain, it's fairly bad but bearable and I need to rest.

So, that means plans have to change. As always, I need to be aware of my limitations and go with the flow.

Sadly, not everyone understands this, and it happens often. A friend today said she gives up on me for cancelling "again" .

Project Endo callout for creativity!

Right, you lovely lot.

Project Endo is starting to take shape and I would love YOU to get involved.

For the very first campaign I would like to use some imagery that depicts Project Endo and what it is about, and how endometriosis affects women, their lives and families.

Why every run is a victory

So. If you haven't checked out the awesome ladies that are Team Bangs on the Run 2, I suggest you do.

Follow our hashtag on Twitter, follow us all and see what we are all up to.

As a team of 13 ladies, we are all coming at this challenge with our own stories. We have been sharing with each other the reasons why we run, and I assure you, every time I read about why a team-mate is running it makes me cry.

Things that change when you have kids and why they don't matter

As you all know, I am the proud mumma to my Mini Divas, Eva and Mia.

Before I had the girls, in a previous life as a working, earning chick in London, my life could not be more different to how it is now. I was out most nights seeing friends, going to galleries, doing stuff. I would get cabin fever staying home for more than a night or two and I was rubbish at relaxing (as seen here).

St Ives 10k

So, today I managed to run a 10k.

Last week, as you know, I was sad to miss the Boutique Run at the hands of endo, so this week I was determined to get out there and do the race.

Team Bangs Training - progress

I love me some visual graphics, I do.

Nothing stirs the loins so much as a nice visualisation of data, particularly when it shows progress of me. Running. Yes.

So, here is my Nike run history from my online Nike Running profile.

Pain is lonely

 

 

Pain is lonely.

It happens so often, no-one has anything left to say.

It's normality, being trapped in a body that doesn't work how it should. It doesnt make it any easier.

Pain is isolation, the world goes by outside the window.

Pain is silent. No one hears a scream.

 

 

Quitting from a non quitter

As I write, my beloved Scribs and Candice from Team Bangs should be around half way through the Boutique Run 10k.

Boutique Run and plan B

So, today is my Boutique Run 10k.
I am not going.

I am in so much pain I can barely move from endo and I have had to take the sad choice to step out of this one.
To all who have sponsored me, I am booked onto the St Ives 10k next Sunday, and I WILL honour those donations by getting the kilometres under my belt.
I am incredibly sad to miss out on this amazing event but, as you all know as much as I do, this is the way I have to live my life.
Of course, we all know that my pain might be prevalent for the Run to the Beat and my plan b there is to have my support team travel with me, to run/walk as much as I can then have help getting home.
I have trained for this 10k and am on schedule for the half marathon so my journey is underway unhindered by the endo beast. But, as always, compromises are made.

Thanks to my lovely Sarah today, for her understanding, love and friendship. I will miss running with you today chica, go like the wind.
DD
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Honesty

Honesty can be a tricky thing.

Running Love

Endo pain

Options for the Optionless

Yesterday I went to visit the lovely people at the endo clinic in Addenbrookes. It has been 7 months since my laparoscopy and Mirena insertion, and, as you all know, although I have had a certain amount of relief initially, the pain is very much still prevalent.

The thing about endo is that although 1 in 10 women have it there is pretty much bugger all they can do. It’s about management, rather than cure.